If you ask me how I am, I say I'm good. I'm sitting on a hotel bed in Langkawi with a Macbook on my lap, editing a video with great soreness on my feet; which is good. 2014 is ending soon, and I am mostly not ready for that. Twenty fourteen is the year where I began being serious with my ambition of...
"Is it too late to talk?" You made me want hydrocodone. You made me want to write books that will cut you by the hinge of the newly printed papers as much as you have encouraged me to. You made me want to run away from here to somewhere very far away. And you don't realize that. "...it's all fictitious." I used to...
I have always hated coffee when I was little. I'd say I don't understand people who drank coffee. But now that I've become older, I needed caffeine to keep me up and to fulfill the bitter-sweet of life therefore I have chosen to admire coffees. It is probably the only other drink I like warm (I also like iced coffee) apart from hot...
"I know it's over, and it never really began, but in my heart it was so real." -The Smiths It's taking me a lot to say this, but I still really care about you. I just chose to not wonder of them, because I'm growing up, and memories fall apart, and time heals all wounds and I need to love myself first. I...
I cannot wait to meet you in January. I hope not much will change. 1. I will speak in English, because I'm practicing my writing skills and I want you to read English and I'm sorry for the teachers in your school for letting you read in English but I want to write you a letter and I hope you see this. 2....
This is the speech I did yesterday in BPK Penabur Bogor. I really liked what I have written though. I really liked the way it's built. I guess it was just not good enough for the competition, and because I suddenly forgot a line at the 4th paragraph. It's stupid to think I could have won when I knew I wouldn't. There was...
It's not worth telling others how boring your life is. It's not worth complaining of how this is the best your life can come up with. So why am I here, trying to write about how the red cells in my blood wishes to stream away? Never have I ever seen so many blood coming out of a cut, of my own. It...
"Depression is quiet. Anyone can fall victim to it And much like a mask, people hide it with a smile ...and an "I'm Fine." Nobody can detect it but yourself, because disguising it is easy. But you can't hide it forever Everybody reaches a breaking point. But that's okay. There is love and support all around you. By talking with others, you will...
I feel like the worst part of parting with your friends is if you don't meet them again. But to think that we want to meet them again, we should already know why we want to and why we should. To be painfully honest, I don't miss all of my friends that has left. I miss some but not all. Is that selfish? ...
Maybe the only reason why I'm posting such an emotional post is because I'm on my period. You know those moments where it's late at night and you suddenly realise how lonely you are? How you wish you had someone to talk to? How you wish you had a story to write? Well, those moments are standing by with me tonight. I am...
I lost my mind. There was emptiness inside me, and it's leaking. I lost my feelings, my interest, and although pain & depression have escaped me, I feel like I'm not whole. I wasn't in love or hate or fear. It's like there is something desperately missing, I need that something, but I don't know what that something is.-Math Class thoughts ...
Hello, Hi, Hey! Yesterday I made a short introduction video around my school ATC, and my very first video in my new channel! I'm pretty sure I'll be continuing this hobby since as far as I know is the most enjoyable thing I've ever done, also, click the link down below to watch it: Happy ATC I actually have made videos in another...
I suppose it's fine to announce to this blog the same story and not being read at all. It's fine, my sarcasm is usually ignored even by the people I care about. Things haven't changed, but it did not stay the way I wanted it to be. I'm bored, and tired, and lonely. Well, what do you expect from a lonely life anyway?...
5th of March 2012, I moved to Al-Taqwa College Indonesia and started boarding after 3 weeks. 6th August 2014, I wish I could quit boarding as soon as possible. Summer of 2013, I thought I found my ‘story’, May 8th 2014, I lost the story I never had. June 15th 2014, I parted with the quarter of my life: my classmates; some of...
It's almost 4 in the morning today, and I just realized that I got a dozen of skype messages from my friend Raissa who is leaving for her Boarding school in Solo in 3 more weeks.Which is big, if she's someone who lives by very close to your life. This blog post is specially made for Raissa, and no Rai, I'm not going to...
I think it's time to officially introduce you to my most beloved group of people, the Mushy Tofu Community! Which is just a fake name to cover the real identity of our group name. p.s. I'll give you a hint: the original name is the exact same thing except in Indonesian language :) Oh and, if you've read my previous posts I'm pretty...
Hi, it's been awhile since I wrote. So a lot of things happened. Most of my friends move from school, a few came, the school gain new rules and more tiring changes. I say that, staying in a school that progresses a lot of changes is tiring too. Moving school isn't the only thing where you need to blend in with the new...
So if you hadn't known, community JacksGap aka YouTuber Jack Harries is making a project on What do you Love? and What do you Fear? I was very thrilled to hear this news and hoping that I could shoot some things and send it to him through Skype but turns out, I couldn't. The Internet and my PC aren't cooperating with me well...
My bucket list are slowly getting ticked! I'm so happy :) I don't know if it's only her and my brother who noticed but people are starting to ask. You probably have zero idea what I'm talking about. Well, basically I'm talking about la mémoire. I just hope I don't sound so hopeless or sad. It's nice -you know, to get along with people....
The rapidly strokes above means: My Collarbone in Japanese and yes people, I Google translated that. This would make no sense, but so does Alice's world that she said she'd make if she had a world of her own. My friend once told me that someone actually told her that the girl in class that he has no clue about is: me. Which,...
When I was young and stupid, I wanted to be an artist and a doctor, now I am tall and all grown, I want to be a writer. A job so strong that can change the human's mind by only imagination of the brain's creation. And it is not too hard if we try, not too hard if we just pray more each...
Do you ever just get this really strange goosebumps rising when you bite an ice cream? Or even think of the whole load of shit exams you need to take? Or when you breathe someone's cigerattes? Or maybe when you see that someone smiling? Well, I do. The skin of my body is popular for rising the goosebumps all the freaking time on either...
Life's easiest mantra: the double F You know how sometimes people ignore you for no apparent reason right? Or maybe, when they did something wrong to you in such way that made you feel betrayed or hated. Whatever the cause of the hate or betrayed feeling that you crave inside you, the easiest way out of it -my one and only mantra is...
It is -as everyone know, the last year for most 9 graders to gather in the school. What I mean is that in a few weeks, we will soon be parting away for a lot of us will move school. It's sad to think of that and one time everytime, I get happy at class, smiling while drawing with the perfect silent situation...
Lately I've been lost tracking my own self-blog if that makes sense.. It's hard cooperating with shit, school, feelings, games, family, friends and the internet. And I guess that's why it's really hard. But here I am finally posting! A lot of things have happened. Some of my friends left and some people I know forget. It's sad to remember that but life...
